I know there are many who have faced far more terrible things.
I know people pass on everyday.
I know I wasn't as close to him as I could have been.
I know it could be worse than it is.
Just because it could be worse doesn't make it suck any less.
Just because I wasn't as close to him as I would've liked to have been doesn't make my heart care any less.
Just because people pass on all the time doesn't make this time less special.
And just because people have faced more terrible things doesn't make grieving any easier.
I know that God is in control and that this is all apart of His plan. I understand that.
I just would love to be able to relive and to create more precious memories with him.
I also know that everyone ends up saying things like this when someone passes on. I know that.
I know.
But I could have hugged him tighter and talked with him longer.
I could have kissed his cheek and laughed with him until we could barely breathe.

I know that he is rejoicing in Heaven. I know that he is no longer in any pain or suffering. He is happy, he is free, and he is watching and listening to me every second of the day. ♥
I love you everyday Pawpaw.